How I maintained my honor and high status ⇐ And sex was so close...

[Anonymous]

I want to admit, I once met a boy in a diving school, we only corresponded for a couple of days, but I already realized that he was stupid and there was nothing to talk to him about. You know, there are people whom I call “collective farmers,” and we are not talking about the place of residence, but about the person’s mentality. Such people only know how to speak on meager topics, they don’t know how to think broadly, look at a situation from different sides, they are dumb as a plug, this boy, let’s call him Nikita, because that’s his real name, he was the same, but it was , what distinguished him from other collective farmers, I believe that this was his gift of fate and the only chance to break through from one dirt to another dirt, because to get to riches, beautiful appearance is not enough, this distinctive feature is his appearance. He was quite handsome, two meters tall, but, by the way, there was a dullness in his face, but nevertheless, he was beautiful, it’s stupid to deny it.
And I, like a starved animal, who had her first and last time something with a guy more than a year ago (kiss), throwing away all my moral principles, I, like an animal, rushed at this collective farmer, with whom there was nothing to even talk about, but I diligently closed my eyes to it and opened them wider, looking at his photos, I quickly wanted to attract some kind of romance into my life, even a light affair, but due to my high values ​​and moral convictions, I could not take such an adventure earlier, because for me the world was divided into black and white, or serious relationships into all my life, or none at all, but as I already said, instincts take over, I was hungry and after a couple of days of correspondence I called this guy to meet me after classes, we took a walk, I was convinced that in terms of communication he is a primate, but outwardly he is an Apollo, he He constantly climbed up to me, sat closer, and I played an innocent girl and pretended that I couldn’t imagine how we would fuck every 5 minutes. I did well, I constantly sat down, he offered me to get sucked in, but I refused. The next day we saw each other again and then we were already hooked, because I was tired of being a highly moral lady in our mortal world, where no one appreciates it, and for the first time I followed the lead of my brutal instincts and whims. I sat on his lap while we were sucking and I’d be lying if I didn’t say that I was so fucking turned on by this. When I came home, I was glad, albeit not completely, but at least partially saved honor, because I only sucked with him on the 2nd date , and not by 1, but I was not happy, having taken off my panties and realizing that while we were sucking, I came all over 10 times in a circle, I realized that it was time to take the bull by the horns. This guy was famous for his low reputation in the past, he was greedy for one-time sexual relations, therefore, I did not think that I was acting dishonestly, my plan was clear as day, having experienced 1 kiss in the past and having analyzed the second kiss in my life with this Apollo I I realized that my ex kissed simply disgustingly, which cannot be said about the new partner of my life, putting two and two together, I realized that since Nikita is a good kisser, handsome, has a wealth of sexual experience behind him, maybe he can satisfy my animalistic, bored nature? That day I was more direct than ever, I sent him a letter with a short, clear, but no less poetic message: - "Maybe we can fuck and expense?"
He answered me also briefly and clearly, preserving all the tension of the situation and intrigue, while showing his masculinity as bequeathed in the animal kingdom: "Come on".
Having had a discussion immediately after this, I was flattered by his initial opinion of me, he wrote that he thought I was unearthly a girl who seemed to come down from heaven, interested in books and everything beautiful and lofty, he could not have expected that I was greedy for such connections, as I already wrote above, I was greatly flattered by this, because in our modern rotten world, few people noted my spiritual nature, so I wrote to him: “yes, you know, by the way, I was joking about this,” I wrote him a long letter that I only agreed to a serious relationship and this proposal was nothing more than a joke (I lied) to which he replied: “I knew you were joking,” I caught myself with a repeated flattering smile and caught myself thinking that I wouldn’t even spend 5 minutes alone with this person, it’s unpleasant for me to talk to him, I don’t like it I don’t like his thinking, and I don’t like him as a person, but I can’t do anything with my animal urges, because what cannot be taken away from him is his pleasant appearance, which encourages me to abandon my distinctive highly moral spirit. So I still decided to put my needs first, set myself the goal of fucking with him and leaving him, I didn’t feel sorry for him, because, as I said earlier, he was and is greedy for short-term relationships, of course, he told me, that now he had wised up and was looking for a serious relationship, but I would be a fool if I didn’t understand that he probably said this to every woman he had, so I moved on to my goal, turning off any compassion for him, although he really wrote to me that really fell in love with me, well, I, apparently, was a messenger from his past, because as they say, “Life is a boomerang,” and I was the same boomerang that would repay him for his past carnal sins by flying straight onto his dick , I offered him to rent an apartment, of course, I continued to play the shy angel, I said that I just wanted to cuddle and watch a movie, nothing more, but this lustful devil immediately saw through me and all evening, every 5 minutes he wrote to me “yes, I know, what are we going to do there", "don't pretend that you're not like everyone else, you want it too, it's nature." Of course, I was offended by such words, even knowing that it was true, every lady would be hurt by such rude straightforwardness, I fought the devil to the last drop of blood, but in the end my ego and conceit won, I didn’t want him to talk about me like that I thought I had told him to go to hell and blocked him.
That’s how I remained unsatisfied, but I retained my honor and high status without copulating with the devil.