Mobile versionHello, anonymous
I had a boyfriend, and it was my first time with him (it was even repeated several times), of course it sounds stupid that I’m writing now. But that’s not the point. We broke up because A friend wrote to me and he saw this on my phone, began to be jealous and said, “Let me read the correspondence at the very beginning.” I refused. And I told him, “You don’t let me read correspondence with your friends, girls, then why should I Should I let you read it even if you turned your phone away from me?"
Then I silently went home and that’s it. When I was driving home, I took a screenshot of the very beginning of the dialogue with a friend, he wrote "I understood everything, go on talking with my friend, that’s all the end "
Of course my heart collapsed, well, I think he’s not the first and he’s not the last, a maximum of 4 days have passed since that parting, and I miss him so much, thinking about him all the time..
Yesterday at school I saw a boy younger than me, he’s probably 9-10 years old... I started to have a sexual desire (maybe it was the first time I had with my ex-boyfriend, because of this I’m probably not having sex now), or I don’t know how to explain this, maybe they understood...Then I dreamed that I gave this boy a blowjob and we fucked, I don’t know what I’m dreaming about...After that I consider myself a pedophile...What a boy younger than me should do is and also 18+, ugh
Am I a pedophile? ⇐ Half-truths and fantasies
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pavel - Total posts: 2
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Re: Am I a pedophile?
Hello. No. Until you have had sexual intercourse with a child, you are not a pedophile, your imagination is of course wild, and such thoughts do not appear just like that.
Maybe this boy somehow reminded you of your loved one? Or he has similar habits. I don’t know what and how, but you are definitely not a pedophile, and don’t worry, I understand that it hurts when you are abandoned, I know it myself, I haven’t been able to forget about my past love for two years... I’ll say that even mental problems began due to worries.
In short. I am sure that you are a very nice girl who was unlucky, try not to be upset, and everything will be fine.
Maybe this boy somehow reminded you of your loved one? Or he has similar habits. I don’t know what and how, but you are definitely not a pedophile, and don’t worry, I understand that it hurts when you are abandoned, I know it myself, I haven’t been able to forget about my past love for two years... I’ll say that even mental problems began due to worries.
In short. I am sure that you are a very nice girl who was unlucky, try not to be upset, and everything will be fine.